Date:	2005-03-29 22:57
Subject:	whatsup biiitch
Security:	Public
Mood:	too tired to sleep
Music:	blood brothers motherfucker!!

my day.

woke up, got dressed with my new ROOS on and headed out.

got to school and did nothing for the first couple periods. played volleyball in gym class actually. went to math class and slept as usual. fuck mrs. thake.

went to study and got written up for doing mad libs. hello extended day sometime next week. the mad libs were sick tho, so funny.

went through the rest of the day, had a good lunch.

then came extended day with a military sargent teacher who talked like the snake from the jungle book. it was fucking hell. 3 hours of sitting trying not to fall asleep. i did NO work. got outta school and came here, hung out with mckearny.

so i jus took a shower and now here i am. what a waste of a day huh?


my eyes are sooo heavyyyy.

eric silva; out

Date:	2005-03-28 11:54
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	fuck school
Music:	sing me anything

the weekends just keep getting worse and worse. what the fuck. fuck live journal. eric silva; out

Date:	2005-03-20 19:39
Subject:	absoloutley no comment
Security:	Public
Mood:	hungover.
Music:	head automatica

well. this weekend got a little out of hand, so therefore i am leaving a 'no comment' dont bother askin cuz im not gonna talk about it. lol, its not bad, just crazy.

anyways. i had a good time, more good times to come hopefully. see y'all later.





i am the razor in the hands of your <3.
i am the razor in the hands of god.
don't say i don't cut when i do, i do, i do.
don't say i'm lying when im true, im true, im true.
the razor. the razor.
don't say we're healing when it's just not what we do.
don't say we're healing when it's just not what we do. <3

Date:	2005-03-13 18:55
Subject:	your body's a weapon.
Security:	Public
Mood:	jubilant
Music:	clipse "grindin"

pretty rad weekend. actually, really rad weekend. first got outta school and chilled with mosia, did our thing, got my taxes check cashed. went to the mall and i got a new outfit and saw gab-o :) . after that mosia, maggie, kate, and i went to tigers house and to party up and drink. then drove back to maggies and slept there. mosia pushed his limits and payed for it. haha. and he let me punch him in the face. haha good times.

saturday, woke up and went to mcdonalds with maggie, and I DROVE! well, i made it to the end of maggies street and halfway down i hit someones mailbox. my bad. then mosia brought me home and i chilled for a lil while, then zac picked me up and brought me to gabbys!! which was an awesome time. we built a fort, watched the notebook, and ate pizza. it was a very rad night for DBS. we had the 2-1 advantage over KK. and after all that was done i went home and stayed up and talked to the farrenator and watched spun.

sunday was my sit around day. i didnt quite make it outta my pajamas. ate lots of food and hung out with markie mark.

Date:	2005-03-02 14:12
Subject:	i'm sittin on baltic with CRAP
Security:	Public
Mood:	adderall
Music:	new norma jean

alrighttttt. taste of chaos was friggin awesome. left home with elliott tiger and maggie. drank on the ride there which was pretty fun. finally got there to find out we missed a static lullaby and senses fail which i was fucking PISSED about. saw underoath, killswitch, MCR, the used. pits were insane. classic show.

after the show it took an hour to get out of the parking garage so we decided to get a hotel room. wicked nice place. just about everyone there was just at the show, so it was pretty much a hotel filled with pumped kids all goin crazy. i made sure to trash the entire room in under 5 minutes. stayed up til around 530 throwin up. got some sleep. woke up at like, 1030 and got the breakfast buffet which wasnt even good but i was really hungry. drove home listening to dane cook which is always fun. got home. and that was my taste of chaos expirence.

nothing too crazy has happened since then, so there's not a whole lot to write about. so i guess thats it. eric silva: out

Date:	2005-02-27 18:30
Subject:	have you ever loved her?
Security:	Public
Mood:	i<3myfriends
Music:	head automatica! haha

hey livejournal! how ya doin? good? thats good. im good too thanks for asking. aright, went to the show friday. saw the most amazing bands in MA (a loss for words and fucking TREOS!) treos should just change their name to 'FUCKING treos' just to really show you how amazing they really are.

www.purevolume.com/thereceivingendofsirens

and at the show i got to see GABBY! :) DBS for rizzle <3!

after the show we hung out with teresa, alex, and missy (3 girls i met at the mall like, 5 months ago) and mike was 'too drunk to drive home' lol, so we stayed the night at their house. fun time!

next morning we got lost kinda on the way home. we didnt actually get lost, we just decided to take a 2 hours detour through norwood, westwood, and some other town. fuck that shit.

today (sunday) i went to look at my new house! its friggin awesome. lemme know if u wanna come see it. moving in april tho. so it'll be awhile til u get the full effect. anyways the family stopped by and mosia tiger and markie came by to check it out. it was a good time. making a good day. making a good week. making a good vacation. making a good year.

making a good life.


eric silva; out.

Date:	2005-02-24 23:11
Subject:	HERE'S TO CHEAP SEX AND CODIENE.
Security:	Public
Mood:	in a daze...
Music:	sthornforeveryheart

well god damn. pretty crazy couple of days. cant really explain it cuz im not all the sure what went down. it was good tho. hung out with my favorite people [for the most part except for one night.] lol, wasnt bad tho. im ou for now peace.




we're.
not.
not like you.
you're.
heart.
is untrue.
<3

Date:	2005-02-22 09:41
Subject:	best monday of my life.
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	'champagne supernova' - oasis

alright, started off sunday night. slept over johnnys for 'foredoes me quite' with dallas and the rest of the band. woke up and rented a van, loaded up the equipment and headed for CT.

the ride up was a good time. it wound up being me, johnny, dallas, josh, larkin, tiff, jesse, and mike i think. we got to the webster theater and we hadda stand around for a lil while. helped all the bands carry shit in talked to the guys from hidden in plainview and a thron for every heart. hung around there for the night, watched the bands. met alot of new people which was fun. then we rented a hotel....

it was ridiculous. people jumping from bed to bed all night. hitting people in the nuts, throwing food, arguing, running down the halls. it was ridiculous lemme out it that way.

so i woke up, the only one without a blanket with the window open, so i figured uder the bed was the warmest spot. dunno why. so we trekked back down here to good ole MA and now here i am. the ride home everyone slept.

i must say it was the best monday of the year.

Date:	2005-02-16 00:15
Subject:	it doesn't get any better than this...
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	shake down, you make me break.

i dunno what to write about.

lately things have just gotten crazy. kinda. i'm starting to feel welcome in the group i hang out with. i dunno, i always had this feeling ever since i was little where i thought i was just tagging along all the time. must be a little brother thing.

"you don't know shit about me or my friends. what they are what i am. so cut the shit and try not to pretend. you're scared of who and what we are and so you question yourself. but your pride won't let you show your fear to anyone else. you don't know me. so don't judge me. you don't know you. you're too scared to." - Throwdown - 'Forever'

oh man that is a great song, i've had it stuck in my head all fucking day. so anyways valentines day was pretty good. went over to alyssas with jess tiger and tasha. watch requiem. laughed at that one part lol. by the time i got home i was exhausted so i passed right out.

so today when i got to my dads house my oldest brother rob and my sissy krissy came over to celebrate my birthday. had a really good time. <3 them. then i pretty much just sat around. talked to gab for a little. i just called lauren at 12:00 to wish her a happy birthday lol. CUZ TODAYS HER BIRTHDAY!

so now im just sitting here, only awake cuz im on adderall. which is terrible when you're trying to sleep. so i just been sitting here listening to TBS and SoCo cuz i dunno, thats the emo thing to do. and im so emo. i just found this thing i wrote ahile back on a lonely night lol:

so here's to the nights where nothing is wrong/and nothing is right all at the same time/to the people that you love/ and the feelings that you fight/ i hate the way i love you/ and the way you say you love me too./ when i'm too weak to hold on/ and too scared to let go/ you come on cue and complicate this disaster./

i dunno, i thought i was gettin somewhere with the beginning but towards the end it just went to shit lol. but im gonna go upstairs, make myself a sandwich, sit on the couch in the dark with no tv or lights, and think about whatever comes to mind. and hope no one comes downstairs and sees me just sitting there.



: what would i say? 'uhh.....hey. just sitting here...how bout you?'

Date:	2005-02-13 21:12
Subject:	(:
Security:	Public
Mood:	drunk
Music:	'gentlemen' - mewithoutYou

wow. thats what this entry will start with. wow.

okaaaay, friday i went to ben gaboury's party and everybody showed up. we went out and fishbowled a car and when me and tiger walked in, we had to walk right back out because there was a strobe light and we seriously couldnt take it. it was out of control. so we made it back in and made some sweet arrangments out of the refridgerator magnets (lol, a white bitter man.......frantic power!) lol tiger

okay, so then saturday i sat around ALL day and was gonna go see dallas perform in providence but then i couldnt get a ride so i ended up stuck in the house all night. so i got some chinese food and watched movies and it was pretty nice

then today i went to my nanas for my family party. got a ton of $$ and a gift certificate to best buy, but the best part was seeing all my family cuz i dunno, i like seeing them alot cuz they're not one of those annoying family's they're great. ALL 26 aunts uncles and cousins and my grandparents. and all the animals lol.

ok well now im done with this, cant wait fer valentines day tomorrow!

Date:	2005-02-11 12:34
Subject:	shake it like a salt shaker!
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	'failure by designer jeans' - from first to last

alriiiight, my birthday! i swear this is like, THE birthday weekend cuz im hearing about peoples birthday soo much. may must have been a popular month to have sex back in the day. anyways. tonight i think im goin to spencer's cousin's party to go get WRECKED with the cool kids. sittin in art right now with the farrenator just hangin out. shes sick and thinks shes not goin out tonight, but the chances of her stayin in on my birthday, a friday night none the less, are slim and none.

im switching into my new chem class monday, that should be a blast. [sarcasm]. hmmm, i cant really think of anything to write about but i'll probably update later this weekend if i get a chance. my family party is sunday so im psyched for that! and with that said, im out.

Date:	2005-02-10 14:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious
Music:	'floater' - ETID

hit the deck! hit the deck!
brace yourself for this catastrophe.
show no mercy for women and children.
show no mercy for women and children.
this war has only begun,
and we'll rule the aftermath.
masked with bandanas and hoods.
you won't even know what hit you.

those who surrender, will just die like the rest.
those who surrender, will just die like the rest.

we are the K-A-T-B crew.
and we are growing in number each day.
when confronted you'll have only 2 options:

kill or be killed.
thrill or be thrilled.
if the descision you make is to turn and run,
blood will be spilled.

KILL! ALL! THAT! BREATHES!

the street looks like a puzzle of corpses.
as we parade we'll throw candy to the sidewalks.
we'll march as hard as we can.
we'll march as hard as we can.





anyways. today was pretty sick i guess. nothing too crazy. got switched outta my chem class goin into a new on 6th period instead of 5th periood, causing me to lose art! oh well. tomorrow is my birfday and i still dunno what im gonna do. hopefully i'll figure something out. aright well im gonna wrap this up quick, i'll prolly write again tonight to go more into detail.

Date:	2005-02-09 16:29
Subject:	152 STYLE
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious
Music:	'Ebolarama' - Every Time I Die

big ups to markie mark nelson for saving me from a boring half day. after i wrote last, he we drove to burger king and saw briana, mike, and their friend. had some laughs, made up S.L.A.M.R. you know. then came back to his house, played some video games, played some pool. then we went outside, played some basketball, had a unique snowball fight. then we played some ice hockey on his pond and once that was done with i called it a day. pretty good day.

Date:	2005-02-09 11:10
Subject:	not much to say
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	www.purevolume.com/alossforwordsmass

"we can wait for the wind to blow.
or give me a look so cold,
it gives me chills and ends the summer war.
my eyes roll,
round and over and again.
falling down, dizzy with sunstroke.
i'll be there.
and i'll try to identify,
try to look through the grey skies in your eyes.
i'll pick up everything you left behind.

cross your fingers.
and pray for winter.
i'll be there.
painting the town your favorite color.

guess i'll call or see you around."

had half day today which i wasn't expecting so now im sitting bored. dunno what to do with myself lol. well my birthday is friday and im kinda startin to get excited. nothing to piss my pants over tho. well, see ya later.

Date:	2005-02-08 18:48
Subject:	DYNASTY.
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	'drama summer' - the starting line

alriiight, went to the patriots parade with the whole crew today. awesome time. i'll go through my day.

rolled outta bed at 7. watched a little bit of Hellfest 04, best video. tiger picked me up and we caught the 730 train and some DOUCHE bag old guy said i stepped on his shoes and he just got them shined (i didnt step on his shoes) and he got all up in my business about it and kept callin me dude.

got to south station and waited for jared, clayton, matt,and joe. clayton handed me a dr. pepper filled with soco. 8:12 a.m.-the drinking begins.

so we go up to the mcdonalds in south station and my drink wasnt too strong, so i chugged it. tiger handed me his drink and i took a sip and it was like straight soco. had some more of that, then joe gave me one more and we were ready to go. we walked around being loud drunks til about 10 or so.

then me jared and tiger set off to find more alchohol. we went to CHINATOWN. in there we found some wicked sketchy chinese guy to make a packy run for us and we all got 40 oz! haha, so 80's.

so we went in some alleyway to drink them, and we were joined by a random group of kids, one had to pee. so then we decided to leave when some guy came out and we all still had half of our 40s. where do we go? mcdonalds in chinatown. so we all have super long straws with our 40s in our jackets and just drinking them casually, being loud again.

after that whole ordeal, we finally found our crew again just in time to watch the parade. we yelled and screamed and had a great time. fell in a couple snowbanks, had a good time none the less.

train ride home was a blur. met alot of kids, and then just got sick of being on the train and jumped off into a snowbank 100 yrds from the train stop. i had a great time with all of my close friends. im positive that i missed alot of things that happened today but oh well.


"hey frank, i went to the bathroom so bad on the train. i put a sign that said 'do not use'. ......hahaha" -random train conductor

Date:	2005-02-07 15:34
Subject:	break my bones
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	the early november (i know, gay)

alright, first entry on this journal. if i need to add you to my friends list thing then comment and i'll figure out how to do it...cuz i have no idea how.

pats won the superbowl. hurray how awesome. goin to the parade tomorrow to get faced and cheer, ya know. pretty boring game tho if u ask me.

listened to A Different Day's first recording of 'break my bones' that they did at Red Dog Studios i think it was called. i dunno it came out sick and they should be puttin it on their purevolume site when its done. check out all their shit:

www.purevolume.com/adifferentday
www.differentdaymusic.com

it's fucking excellent, seriously. i still havent put a picture up yet cuz i dont have time but i will at some point. aight well now that i got all that across im just gonna peace it. 152 style... peace bitches.